A Wonderful Day Passed!

I woke up around 6 am in the morning today. I used to begin my days with a cup of coffee, but I had a strong desire to walk down the ocean today. Without even freshening up, I walk down the ocean in front of my apartment in Alki Beach, Seattle to gaze at the majestic beauty of naked Earth.

With a view of the ocean as wide as my eyes can see at a time; the mountains heeding directly as me as I gaze across them; watching birds flying in communion at this hour while some eagles are digging through the debris made mostly of rotten algae and seashells to catch their proverbial worm. The incredibly popular beach for the West Seattlites isn’t as popular at this hour. What’s more, is that I am as quiet as the sand on the beach or the murmuring wind bringing in gentle waves on an otherwise dead silent ocean.

But today I am focused on myself. I know that deep inside, I am all empty and my existence is perishable, yet I feel a constant worry about how to speed up the clock to nine in the night. For I do not know what I need to do today. As a universal witness to commemorate my short-lived life, I used to hang a garland made of 108 beads of rudraksha in the wall of my living room. It was telling me at every glance that I am transitioning between the stages of life leading all the way from birth to death, and then coming back as a new person. Knowing this, I was uncertain whether doing anything was of any significance anymore.

Lost in my thoughts, I go straight into a Q/A session with myself, trying to forget the illusions of this life and this world while also searching for a direction.

“I am chosen.”

“Why? I don’t know.”

“To do what?”

“Obey the laws of the gods.”

“What gods?”

“The gods we don’t need to know about.”

“Why not?”

“They are as fake as real.”

“God is real. I don’t know what god means to you. But my god is the One. The One dictates the vibrations of nature, the mass of a proton, and the curvature of spacetime.”

“Those concepts are only in your head.”

At this moment, I stopped remembering what conversation continued since I started to go into a deep meditation. I woke up a few minutes with a clear mind and did nothing significant in the day. In the end, while my thoughts were unable to carve out my purpose, I felt like it was a day well-lived.

This is how I spent a remarkable day in solitude within the noisy, fast-moving city of Seattle. See you next time!